Pick up line, that’s what
I think and frame in my mind all the time, trying to impress a girl for a relationship,
one night stand, half an hour stand or
whatever, I am actually fucked up with my monotonous life, don’t actually know
which way I am leading.
I see humans
really as a part of the society who needs someone to live. We are social
animals alas! Back when I was in twelfth, I was promoted from being the voice
of the play to playing the role of the hero for five minutes, as Daniel who was
playing the lead role caught up in the accident slipping down the stairs.
I will not say
that I am a born actor, I really chocked twice to stand in-front of the girl
whom I liked. My dialogue delivery was perfect but I was no way suited for
being the lead. I knew myself better.
Years later from
then, I guess I am not so good with the dialogue stuff of mine, “Pick-up lines”, That’s what I think and
frame in my mind all the time”.
I see people
dating and I imagine myself in their shoes, trying to fascinate the male
instinct of mine, imagining about kissing the girl and making out with her while
my eyes are closed but as soon as I open my eyes, my emotions are shattered. I
find myself alone trying to find little of the exciting part to pull the socks
up and say “Yeah this is the girl for me”.
I doubt, I feel
I would rather die single.
My heart is
irritated from being single and my phone is irritated of notifying me that it
is“Out of memory”, I don’t know how
many times I have installed different dating apps in order to find the perfect
mate for me. I tried it all “POF dating app”, “Ok cupid”, “Badoo”, updating the
sexiest pic of mine, writing up the bio in such a way that it looks the best. I
was desperate.
I then heard
about “Tinder”. From dating experiments, viral videos to parody ‘Tinderella’,
it was all over the internet. I’d tried every site except tinder, so I thought
to give it a try. I swiped right the entire day knowing that at the end of the
day, I’ll at least have a handful of girls to talk to. In the midst of a
several matches, I saw a beautiful girl with perfectly black hair and hazel
eyes. Her smile caught my attention. She was beautiful but not in the sexy-
kind- of- a- way that you would have expected but there was something about her
that made her irresistible to me.
I won’t say that
her instant reply was the first reason for me to go gaga about her. But I felt
like I couldn’t stop myself from talking more.
We were a match!
She liked me too and it boosted my self-image to rocket high level. Our
conversations were mostly flirtatious. She told me how she loved my manly
looking beard and I narrated a poem on her radiant smile. It was a quick
attraction and our conversation was finally led to a meeting a few weeks later.
Our first date!
We met in a
coffee shop. The aroma of freshly brewed coffee infused with her sweet body
scent turned me on. I soon came to realize that not only she had a personality
but also she had wits and a great sense of humor. I never thought that I would
fall for someone this fast and that too by meeting her on a social dating
application…
…but I was.
Wait, I already did. I was nervous with
all my heart. I was scared that the night might end and she would leave. Would
she? I had found an emotional connection with this pretty lady sitting next to
me and I felt insecure because she meant more to me than just a one night
stand.
I was feeling
more about the love tunes, my heart beat was running way too fast to imagine
what’s next. I started decrypting her thoughts, “what does she want from me?”. I wished that I could know about how this
evening is going to end. I was entangled in the projection of my mind and
heart.
She was able to
sense it all “Are you okay? I mean I am seeing you losing the cool”, she gently
put her hands on mine trying to bring me back to my senses. Bring me back to
her.
But she never knew
that every second I was falling for her even more then the last time. I
collected myself together and thought to go with the flow, I had my time, my
whole time to take care of the situation, to speak to her about what she meant
to me.
I smiled and
replied back “Nah, I’m….I’m fine, I guess.”
I knew what was
there in the next stream. I was hoping not to screw things up in my desperation
so I was finding my old self together, trying to frame the wishes of mine in
small couplets of words and dialogues.
“Do you want to
join me up to my place? We can have a glass of red wine together unless you
don’t drink after coffee” I asked winking mischievously as I brought myself
back to my senses.
She smiled.
We walked our
way to my apartment which was just four lanes apart from the current place we
were. I never thought that I would be able to pull this off. I really wanted to
speak to her, to communicate my deepest desires for her. I had waited for
someone like her for my entire life but I kept quiet with this kind of
chattering of my heart and talked more to the things which interested her.
We drank a glass
of wine which became two and then I lost count. I still can’t remember how but
soon we were on the bed while the darkness surrounded us. We both were high, we
both were hungry for love, I could sense that. I felt like a wild animal ready
to unleash. Maybe she felt the same too, maybe, maybe not. All I knew was
tonight would be the night.
I lay next to
her and played with her hair. She said nothing and this surprised me. She
just kept looking at me through the cascading hair, I just messed.
What happened
later is just a faint memory.
Her fingertips
started to play a tune on me, leaving Goosebumps where they were treading. I
held her close and blew my warm breath on the nape of her neck and we both knew
that this night won’t end. I dug deeper into her collarbone, leaving her short
of breath.
We inhaled
desire and exhaled passion.
There was a
burning desire that was quenching some and igniting some but we didn’t stop
till the sunlight sneaked in through the crystal clear windows. The bed seemed
our map and we were the lost travelers, exploring every inch of each other
while we tried to weave a story together.
We were high. We were together and I guess we were building
our future, moreover I really wanted to build my future with her, and all I had
to do was to talk to her about it. Talk to her that this won’t just be the
happiness of one night passionate feel.
I really thought
about this is it, when I woke up in the morning. This was something which I
waited so long. She was the one for whom god saved me from all the other girls.
My desire and hope finally started shifting from I to We.
I wanted to make
her feel special. I wanted to talk to her about US, Us being together.
My eyes were
still closed while my mind raced with these thoughts. I never thought that someone
like me who was once desperate for any girl would be clean bowled by the first
one on his bed.
I felt loved, I
smiled.
I turned back on
the other side of the bed to kiss on her forehead and wish a very good morning
but instead end up hugging nothing but air. She was not there.
I shouted her
name slowly which then turned into cries. I checked every nook and corner,
where ever I could. Poof! She was gone.
I took my head
in my hands and asked myself “why?” Did I fall for her too fast? Did I trust
her in haste? Are dating application like Tinder just made for random hookups
on your call?
The sun rose and
shone brightly on my face. It was a new day, it was a new me.
--
This piece of fiction is penned by Sakshi Raina
and I. It's insane that this has been delayed since months but it's
finally here. It was great working with her. One of my great blogger
friend, Sakshi is a sweet and a innovative person. It's
been a pleasure to be able to write a story together, She taught me a lot of things while working together :) Make sure you
check out his blog as well.
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As I mentioned Sankalp, it was amazing to work with you! :D
ReplyDeleteWait, is this my first comment on your blog? :P Haha. Stay awesome buddy.
So was for me. and yes this is the first comment of yours on my blog. ;P you too stay blessed forever.
ReplyDeleteThe details mentioned are just mind boggling. I just love that line "We inhaled desire and exhaled passion". I wish it had ended on a positive note. It all seemed so real. Amazing piece @sankalp sir and @sakshi ma'am. Kudos!
ReplyDeleteI am really happy to read this comments of yours. Not all stories end at positive note may be this one was like that only. I am glad that it seemed real to you. Thanks again.
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